It's only a paper moon

"I never feel a thing is real
When I'm away from you
Out of your embrace
The world's a temporary parking place

Mmm, mm, mm, mm
A bubble for a minute
Mmm, mm, mm, mm
You smile, the bubble has a rainbow in it

Say, it's only a paper moon
Sailing over a cardboard sea
But it wouldn't be make-believe
If you believed in me

Yes, it's only a canvas sky
Hanging over a muslin tree
But it wouldn't be make-believe
If you believed in me

Without your love
It's a honky-tonk parade
Without your love
It's a melody played in a penny arcade

It's a barnum and bailey world
Just as phony as it can be
But it wouldn't be make-believe
If you believed in me"

My grandma Helen liked Lawrence Welk a lot. It's the only show we watched together. We also liked to play Skipbo, a card game, & swim together.

I never told her that this song reminded me of her. I think it must have been a photograph of her that I saw once. She looked like Tatum O'Neal in it, or rather, Tatum O'Neal looked like her.

She died peacefully today. My family was right by her side. We talked briefly yesterday & she wasn't in any more pain.

My sweet Violet is back to the Earth now.

Snnnnnoooooowwwww!!

Snow:
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Snow, glorious, snow

Wow! We've gotten over a foot of snow & it's snowing no signs of letting up. I don't think Seattle has gotten this much snow in years. I'm two days out of work, but enjoying tromping around in the snow.

I'm looking to head over to Laguna Beach to visit Mrs. Mandy. She's a travel nurse now & just moved out West. I think she's a bit lonely being the new girl in town. Plus, I'm a little over all this snow, so it will be nice to treat myself to a sunny vacation...especially since Virgin American has direct flights to L.A. now. I can see my girlfriend Emily as well.

Weekend in Van Buren

I had a quick trip to Arkansas to see my Grandma Helen last weekend.

The first night was a little scary. She has a blood clot on her lip & it started bleeding terribly a few hours after I got there. I'd never seen so much blood & I was very scared. Luckily my dad, her caregiver, was there to stop the bleeding. This happens a lot lately so he was prepared. I was not.

I spent most of my time there curled up in her therapeutic massage bed with her. We just talked & napped. I gave her a manicure & pedicure & put Burt's Bees products all over her. People forget how nice those little things can make someone feel. It made me feel good to do it.

As I was leaving she said,"If I don't see you again, good luck with everything."

I had to run out so she wouldn't see me cry. It was a good visit though. I will come back for a longer visit after the holidays so I can help out around the house for my dad. He just has his hands full just taking care of her.